I need help with commitment and dedication, I have to admit I am really demoralized, can som1 share advice?

Drop the cl that bothers you the most. It's better to get 12 hrs. than 0 hrs. Research your profs before you sign up for a cl, note how many failing grades they give, talk to people, go on the Internet and research the profs to find out who is boring, too hard, egotistical, etc. Always, get notes from people who are better note takers than you, pay them if you have to. Everyone misses stuff so it's not wrong to do it. Why should your grades suffer because you're not a good secretary? The people who graduate college are not necessarily the smartest they're just the people who refuse to give up.